this is my goodbye

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Friday, October 31, 2008;

zzz. some beeeeech (!) named heni dong decided to tag me.

SIGHS.
I'M BUSY OK!
somemore trick me into reading that entry.

let's just skip the boring rules.
anyway rules are meant to be broken,
so why even bother to waste my post space.

Starting time: 2.29pm
Name: Dolly Tan Shao Shi
Sisters: 1 (blood-related), 10 (not biologically bonded~)
Brothers: 0 (blood-related), 4 (not blood-ily related)
Shoe size: 7, 8?
Height: 168 =D
Where do you live: Opposite Amk Hub (:
Favourite drinks: Sprite, Coke, Jia Jia, Chrysan...themum?
Favourite breakfast: erm, i think i have a nick rubbish bin.

Have you ever

Been on a plane: how else do u think i went overseas. SHIP? u kuku-head.
Swan in the ocean: ya ya, next time, when titanic 2 sinks.
Fallen asleep at school: a no for this question will make all girls in the world shave their heads.
Broken someone's heart:
Fell off your chair: 1958787 times. during primary sch, when i loved rocking my chair.
Waited for someone to call: of coz. if u dun have dis experience when u're alr 18, u can just drop dead.
Saved emails: i believe ppl save MY mails. wahaha.
What is your room like: filled with educational things. *winks* LOLS. oh and loads of comics.
What's right beside you: a wall, wanna know what's on my left?
What is the last thing you ate: doesn't matter, i splatted it out aft screaming at a cockroach.

Ever had

Chicken pox: Yeap
Sore throat: yes
Stiches: yeah, 6 or 7?
Broken nose: no, but broken neck and leg, yes.

Do you

Believe in love at first sight: er...ya, but will the feeling last, den i duno.
Like picnics: depending on the place and ppl.

Who was/were the last person/thing

You danced with: the kbox mic
Last made you smile: Nel? from bleach. aaa she's damn hottt. cute when young. =P
You last yelled at: the atm machine.

Today did you

Talk to someone you like: ya
Kissed anyone: no
Get sick: no
Talk to an ex: ya
Miss someone: ya
Eat: ya

Random

Best feeling in the world: hmm. seeing that someone smile.
Do you sleep with stuffed animals: yes yes.
What's under your bed: my bed is ALRDY on the floor u kuku-nathan
Who do you really hate: not sure, but i guess there's none. my hate is temporary de.
What time is it now: 3.03pm

Is there a person who is on your mind now: in fact, quite a few.
Do you have any siblings: sib ur si ren tou la.
Do you want children: YAO! but i onli want babies, and toddlers.
Do you smile often: u dun get to see my eyes often, does that ans ur stupid qn?
Do you like your hand-writing: of coz. i love every part of me.
Are your toe nails painted: with dirt? no.
Whose bed other than yours would you rather sleep in: joanna william's

What color shirt are you wearing now: white, blue, and 3 dolphins printed on it, and a few clown fish..and there's coral at......
What were you doing at 7.00 p.m. yesterday: wrking. LAH.
When did you cry last: 2 months ago?
Are you a friendly person: ya, but doesn't take the initiative.
Do you have any pets? yes, in my heart.
Where is the person you have feelings for right now: don't care

Did you hold hands with the person who mean anything to you now: no
Do you sleep with the TV on: no, i'm a ultra-super-duper-uber earth lover. i save electricity.
What the hell are you doing right now: exactly
Have you ever crawled through a window: siao ah?
Can you handle the truth: might take time, but i still prefer the truth than "WHITE LIES", it's still lies. damn it.
Are you too forgiving: maybe
Are you closer to your mother or father? mom

Who was the last person you cried in front of: jade (in public, she's damn shocked. but i just couldn't control la. ps la.)
How many people can you say you've really loved: 2 (not to include my family)
Do you eat healthy: no, why else do u think ppl call me fat.
Do you still have pictures of you & your ex: ya
Have you ever cried because of something someone said to you: ya
IF you're having a bad day, who are you most likely to go to: laoni, nis, kok, jade, christopher, pok (not for the moment. she's as gd as grounded.)
Are you confident: now, yes.

5 things I was doing 10 years ago

1. wishing i would become an adult soon.
2. fighting in sch
3. talking back at the irritating teachers who have no self-respect for themselves.
4. playing country eraser games. (the kind u flick and flick on the erasers)
5. accompanying mom to school to let the teachers wash her face with saliva.

5 things on my to-do list today

1. check my pay
2. kbox
3. alcohol
4. enjoy irritating the shit out of laoni
5. enjoy getting all crazy in the kbox room

5 snacks I enjoy

1. *opens the wrapper*
2. *cruching away*
3. *chewing away*
4. *throwing away the wrapper*
5. ops! i forgot to see what brand is that.

5 things I would do if I were a billionaire

1. treat my friends and family to travel!
2. buy closet full of clothes and bottoms and bags
3. never ever to "forget" to buy a friend's present
4. install aircon in my house, EVERYWHERE
5. ...wait, if it's nt gonna happen, ASK ME PLAN SO MUCH FOR WAT, U BITCH.

5 of my bad points

1. think too much
2. lazy
3. always late
4. not enough determination towards the right things
5. stubborn

5 people I tag

i should end the torture.
-.-''

goodbye ; 10/31/2008 02:34:00 AM

Saturday, October 25, 2008;

Happy birthday to Lorraine Chew Luo Ling.
18th Cake eating day!

happy ba.
hahas decided to went drinking since Luo Ling treating us~
lols thanks dude.

aah. played the game of heart attack in a different way.
the last game is the most memoriable.
lorraine STOOD on the bloody chair doing smth stupid.

god. that was TOTALLY unexpected.
and everyone's caught.
lols.

nah. in case u ppl dunno wat she did.

i think we lorraine paid $100 and kok $10?
but damn worth, why?

- endless forfeits of drinking and laughing,
- 10 bottles of heineken,
- 1 jar of heineken (which me and kok thinks they added some martell inside),
- 1 shot of martell (i drank that only though),
- endless singing.

just for the price f $110 (:

hahas.
6 more days to pay day.
sijie! lun! dlacky! heni! lorr!
>> let's go drink. (:

aahs.
anime fantasy again!
mixture mixture.

gaaaara-sama~
k la, so er xin, add sama behind.
obviously he's so much younger than me.
herhh.

ichigo~
keke. damn cute la this pic, though so damn long le.

deidara, from the akatsuki.
ahem.

iNaruto.
and i wan that new generation nano.
lols.

akatsuki's leader, pein.
DAMN SHUAI LA.
but the name no matter how many times i see,
reminds me of ....penis

death note!
anyway it's a blogskin de.
damn cute.

back to kuchiki byakuya.
shattered, senbonzakura.
WOAAAHHH.

uchiha sasukee.
which, currently is so damn strong.

back to bleach~
kuchiki byakuya, abarai renji, ichimaru gin, kurosaki ichigo, FORGOTTEN (but he's one of my favourite, he uses ice attacks =D)

with his hollow mask.
i kind of like his reiatsu, red and black.
he's kind of handsome actualli, though dumb.

introducing ichigo's gd friend, kuchiki rukia.
YES! U GUESSED IT RIGHT!
she's KUCHIKI byakuya's sister.
super small sized.

and halloween's COMINGGGG~
wahahhaa.

ok, and let me introduce my colleagues~
spinelli.

left to right: me, jade, yusof, isawak (regular customer), ismail, joel (manager)

kk i know i know, i'm the best looking wrker there.
=D

ps: JOANNA WILLIAM HUANG ZHEN LING, photos! u bitch! lols.

Labels: Happy birthday luo ling jie.

goodbye ; 10/25/2008 08:50:00 PM

Thursday, October 23, 2008;

i think my blog is dying.
yup and i agree i should change my blogskin.

but you know, too lazy la.
tskk.

i've tried to find k, i did put in effort.
BUT..

exactly.
the blogskins just feel as though something's missing.
those that pop up on the screens just ain't my type.

oh well.
next time then.

and i love bleach.
<3

ichigo~
and that stupid lion. lols.

oh and my all-time favourite.
BYAKUYA.

hahas.

goodbye ; 10/23/2008 02:10:00 AM

Thursday, October 16, 2008;

talk to me

just speak with me

don't sink before you rise baby

don't fade away

you hesitate

you seem to wait

for all the time we had

feels like a world away

who's to say, we'll be ok

we will make it through the night

don't wanna wake up in this state

i just want us both to smile

cause we're the same

and i know that we'll never change

look i bought your favourite ice cream

i don't wanna see it melt away

if you walk out now

i don't know if we're gonna be the same

baby just talk with me

i just want you to stay here with me

the memories

the things we did

i locked inside my heart

where I know I won't forget

and now, who's to say, we'll be ok

we will make it through the night

don't wanna wake up in this state

i just want us both to smile

cause we're the same

and i know that we'll never change

look i bought your favourite ice cream

i don't want to see it melt away

if you walk out now

i don't know if we could be the same

baby just talk with me

cause i want you to stay here with me

i want you to stay here with me

goodbye ; 10/16/2008 12:31:00 AM

Tuesday, October 14, 2008;

Welcome to the FeMale blog.
This blog has been activated, you are obliged to follow all instructions.
Or you will die.

talking bout being able to do everything, this damn ***** can really do everything.
(i shall not spoil the show by telling the ****)

the timing, the details, the way to do it.
if you just don't follow, you might really die.
the most impossible thing seemed freaking easy the next second.

woots.
this show, Eagle Eye, is F****ing NICE.
please don't because you wanna save money den don't watch it.
you need high quality video for this to be impressed.
oh, and the super loud sound system too.

make you so nervous.

ohh, and sijie darling visited me at work!
delight of the day~
((:

next pay, shall go play!
hmm, no can't really play.
damn it, still so many things to buy.

naah. soh weilun says friday will come down rp.
i RECORDED it here on my blog.
never see you, and YOU'RE DEAD.

soh weilun, you have been ACTIVATED.

-.-''

oh, and i'm damn hungry now la.
damn tired oso.

goodbye ; 10/14/2008 01:32:00 PM

Tuesday, October 07, 2008;

stayed over at nini's hse yest~
love u, nini~
actualli entertained me.
but the show u intro is SO boring i fell aslp.
SIGHS.

hahas.
and her cousin bought a rabbit la, damn cute.
and oh ya, i got HIDDEN and CHASED out of the hse by HER.
first i was hidden in the toilet.

not so bad, coz ln accompanied me HIDING inside.
but the next thing i know,
i was chased out of the house door, standing outside..
with question marks popping out of my head.

shoeless..
bag-less..
sockless..
clueless..

....and den suddenly, she opened the door, "GO GO! she coming out soon."
and i heard the cousin coming out, i ran to the fire staircase to hide.
zzz. i don't know i scared for wat oso.

....for that moment it felt like...
adultery.
zzz.

forever go her hse so adventurous one la.
can lose weight.

oh and her sister took her OWN pic and set as wallpaper of my phone.
and my manager ask, "huh, ur gf ah?"

zz.

talking bout work.
fuck this uncle.
i'm fucking pissed off.

i mean, I'M JUST A TRAINEE.
and fuck la.
i'm not the manager and you ask me to open the cash drawer.
I DON'T EVEN HAVE THE FUCKING PASSWORD.

"uncle, i don't have the password to the cash drawer."

WHICH WORD DO YOU NOT FUCKING UNDERSTAND.

"just count $20 here, AND GIVE ME LAH"

oh ya, he definitely doesn't understand.

"uncle, wait for my manager."

"i now very old meh. don't know den dun ask me wait la. (in total hokkien)"

and off he goes.
the NOT AT ALL colorful and limited vocab of vulgarities.
hullo, i call u uncle u happy enough k.
you're freaking old enough to be MY ancestor.
arsehole.

and i cant be bother to entertain him.
darn.
shout and shout while i'm trying to CONTINUE to take orders.
like i can hear shit.

damn it.
and IT'S A LONG QUEUE.
and IT'S ANOTHER TRAINEE inside.
i have to do everything myself.

not stress enough ah?
fuck off and die.

and i'm surprised i actually..cried.
coz of the incident.
of coz i hid in the backroom after my manager came back.
fuck la.

at least i ignored him.
I'M PROFESSIONAL.

go home and masturbate to death, old man.
at least you'll be satisfied before u die.
i don't wanna see an old man die with the mouth open halfway from scolding ppl.
waste my time.

seriously, why am i even RESERVING this blog post for u.
4 words for you, old dick,

唯老不尊

oh so sorry, i forgot u wouldn't get the meaning.
i forgot u don't even noe what books look like.
of coz u won't know, sorry.
too chim.

i'll try hokkien next time.
or u prefer tamil.

and i guess my blog is more colorful than ur words.
ops. =x

goodbye ; 10/07/2008 12:10:00 AM

Friday, October 03, 2008;

hey there.
fatty is back~

hahas.
omg and i love my aunt.
seriously.

thanks so much.
she spent $200 on me.
>.<>

my aunt become so skinny.
standing beside her, zzz.

I'M FAT AND SHORT.
DAMN.
and UGLY.
ROAR.

freaking cute.
i miss my little.
>.<

miss her really alot.
:((

goodbye ; 10/03/2008 12:14:00 PM

Wednesday, October 01, 2008;

People, father tan is going to preach today,
for i am feeling very holy.

People, remember.
There are 4 things that we can never recover.

1. The stone after it's thrown.

2. The words after it's said.

3. The occasion after it's loss.

4. The time after it's gone.

So, think before you act or say anything.
and grab all opportunities in front of you.

never always say

"wait, wait."

"just another minute."

"tomorrow ba."

because the time doesn't wait for anybody.
and once it's gone, it's gone.

you might never get your "tomorrow" tomorrow.
you might really never get the chance to say something again.

and you know what, ppl?
the feeling of having something kept inside, sucks.
and knowing that the person will NEVER get to hear what u have to say, sucks more.

people always say follow your heart.
but hey, do follow your head too.
for the best things that come out is always done with both the head and the heart.
both, not just one.

if you just follow your head, you might turn into a unfeeling robot.
and by listening to just ur heart alone, you might just forget some other important details.
and thus leading you to do unnecessary things.

so, why make yourself regret.
right right?

ironically, regrets are what makes your life complete.
that's how ppl learn, yeap?
haha.

and sometimes, ironically, what you find is the most important to you right now,
piang! the next minute, it doesn't really matter actually.

what you find is necessary right now,
piang, you've done it, or said it.
and when you look back?
it's TOTALLY unnecessary.

okay, enough of my rantings.
i'll be like waking up tomorrow at 8 to jog.
family bonding time in the noon.
and working during evening.

WTH.
it's okay, i might start to like this kind of lifestyle.
busy, and fulfilling.
not wasting one bit of my time.

ahem, and i spent over $250 in a day today.
-.-''
BOMB LAH.
hahas.

bought a shirt from topman.
and i think i realli like it.
haha.

this is like S size. -.-'' so freaking small.
ya ya alright i know, i have a fucking big butt.
I'LL SLIM DOWN K.
so SHH!

Note: Kindly ignore the "THING" beside me. It's just the shadow. HAHAHA.

oh ya and laoni's right.
i need some PROPER pants.
erm, next month maybe?
lols.

and NO, i'm not dying soon.

goodbye ; 10/01/2008 02:05:00 AM