this is my goodbye

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Friday, March 30, 2007;

thought today wouldn't go out le.. so i went home n slacked on the bed.. and a phone call changed my life!
KOKY CALLED.
said to meet at ps at 3.
muahahahaha.. so happy, can go out le!!
if not, fri leh.. stay at home meh.. so pathetic lo..=(

so i lazed around awhile more n got up to bathe mi fragrance bath..
spray spray, wear wear, style style.. got out..
and i'm late!
but i got there first thou..
KOKY IS SLOW.
i waited for 5mins, n she's here.. haiz.. wat a LOOOONNNNGG wait..

went to 77th street for lookout.. the stocks there SUCK.
but the ppl there not bad, quite frenly la.. cuz i went to play with the model's butt.. and she didn't angry.. hehehe.. so not bad lo!
so went on to IPzone.. and bought a... NOTHING.
and den at last bought a shirt at s&k i think? for $16.. BLOODY HELL, TAT PERSON BLUFF ME. SHE SAY $13 AT FIRST. AND I FIND IT WORTH. nvm~ I GET THE STUFF.

and cy came.. she's the connector of me n koky..
ME - black
KOK - WHITE
CY - ZEBRA
or mayb no la.. she's the PRODUCT of us HAHAHAAHAHAHAHA!!!!
den went UP UP N AWAY~~ to the cinema there to see if there's any shows.. the moment i reach, see not for 2mins.. got pushed down again by them.. haiz.. on the way bought a comic~ and went to mac to decide wat shd i eat.. decided to eat at mos.. but taka de..

WE WALKED THERE LEH.
walked.
WALKED A!!
the cute n lazy me walked.. haiz..
TSKKK!!

on the way again, saw mos.. opposite somerset station and decided to sit dwn there n eat..
koky ordered corn sssssss..
cy repeated corn sssssss..
and i bought two corn sssssss..
SHIT.
in the end i bottom it myself, haiz nevermind~
and one thing gotta tell u ppl..
THE MUSIC & LYRICS THERE SUCKS.
remix man.
how cool(:

and we continued our journey to the west.. (direction opp far east ma)
and ended up at heeren's 77th street..
i chose, i tried on, i picked..
and i bought a white blazier!!
reserved onli la.. next wed gotta collect it.. and it's for $65!
oh god.. tat's ex^^
my $70 is goneeeee~~~!!

muhahahaa.. den we went to paragon..
before tat.. wanted to GET THE COW INTO OUR HANDS de.. but we're considerate towards ourselves, so decided no..
first stop of our adventure, shoe shop - world of sports..
we EXPLORED the seemingly hockey table cum pool table..
and one cue costs $225..
the pool balls set $245 i think.. forgotten.. how ex..
we touched touched.. play play.. and got out..
next stop! - TOILET.
i tucked in my shirt there, koky say looked like waiter.. somemore is those work in coffeebean one.. tskk! muhahahaa.. nvm~!

and den i suggested we go to toys r us..
omg DAMN FUN THERE.
we let ourselves turned into cute little kids again n explore our childhood memories.. by playin CARS, PLANES, TRAINS, SWORDS, HELMETS, BBALLS etc..
how retarded can we be?
i even took dwn a display set 'whiteboard' to play..
omg how creative can we be?
TOYS`R US IS FUN.. EXCITING..
much much more fun then escape.. kekeek.. no la..

bob the builder~

the THREE masketers! (spell correctly??)

*dlacky is gone!*

den we *fast forward* go eat..
walked to taka's pepper lunch, but it's having a damn long queue and tat lazy pig keep complaining tat her leg hurts.. haiz.. so i said,
cy wins - we queue
i win - amk hub's
and of cuz, no need to noe, we're OFF to amk hub..
the journey to the north is tiring.. but fast la..
cuz we chatty old hags ma..
hehehaha..

halfway cy said
cy: i think dun wan eat le la.. no appet..(she haven't even finish her sentence)
kok: OK!
me: why u so happy!?
and they both say is my fault.. rude kids..
and koky wants to choose to separate.. haiz!
so no choice, we walk alone lo..

on the way home.. MET MY NEIGHBORS..
got caught up for i guess.. half an hr..
talking bout studies, me, future, family..etc..
HAIZ!!
but they say i look gd, mature and praised me filial n smart..
IT'S WORTH THE STANDING HAHAHAHA!!

kk.. next time den post pictures la.. hp card kee siao..

goodbye ; 3/30/2007 09:35:00 PM

Thursday, March 29, 2007;

i've finished watchin one litre of tears..
the show is realli damn touching.. i cried, from the second episode onwards, i've cried thruout.. every epi i cried.. the show is about this girl who got a uncurable illness, and it would deteoriate slowly till u can't talk, can't eat, can't walk n so on.. she's onli 15 yrs of age.. if it was me, well i confirm won't be able to hold on..

sad man.. cry until can't control.. shows out the importance and the love of family.. haiz.. to be able to be frens n family members.. i guess it's realli wat ppl say, tat u've done alot of gd deeds in ur previous life ba.. -.-''

''getting sick is not a bad thing. it's just inconvenient..''
''why had the sickness chosen me? i'm onli 15..''
these sentences reminded me of depression la.. zzz if not for tis illness, i'd already have graduated tat stupid sch.. so sick n tired of the atmosphere there.. i need changes.. guess i'm quite scared of Os ba.. tat i haven't start now.. cuz i'm afraid to find out where i stand n mi intelligence..

lol.. of cuz all tat is just an excuse.. i'd try even harder.. not gonna be a coward..
n ya, tat show realli teaches alot lo..
''nobody will be able to survive in tis society without the help of/relyin on others..''
ahhyaaah!

HEADACHE.
not enough slp.
MUAHAHAHAA..

goodbye ; 3/29/2007 05:34:00 PM

Friday, March 23, 2007;

zz.. in sch today was sooooo torturing la!!
i was already so sick.. althou still can walk.. but still have to kana discipline case, for the simple reason of - lending a simple, innocent-looking calculator to a fren during test.
SHIT.
althou the calculator was mine, but i didn't use it cuz i simply did not study for the test and didn't noe it needed one.. it was my fren beside me using.. and i slept thruout the whole test.. the fren in front said he wanted to borrow, so she lent him mi cal.. and den the teacher say return it.. the guy defied him.. and den kena discipline case.. and at the end of the test the stupid teacher asked:"whose calculator was it?" so i raised my hand. and he asked me to follow him to see dnp.
SUCK.
but the funny thing is, dnp admitted it was just a trivial matter too.. of cuz without that idiot's present. feeling sick n i had to apologise for sth i did not do.. i didn't bother to waste mi precious saliva. herh.

we were off at 12pm.. but the sch gate is open onli at 12.30pm..
WHAT'S THE DIFF?!
kns.. so went to hougang mall to eat with amelia, fiona n lynette..
feeling damn hungry, so dun care.. ordered chicken rice despite the sore throat i'm having..
and since dun care alr.. i put two plates of chilli!!
so tasty la.. but got gastric afterwards.. AAAAAAA!!

slacked thruout the whole sports meet since i had nth to do n was feeling PREGNANT thruout the whole thing since i was feeling like i was going to throw up anytime.. zzzz
went to the toilet.. and the toilet simply sucks!!
4 out of 7 toilets was stuck with toilet paper.
2 of them with their locks plucked out.. i seriously don't understand how violent can girls be.. and the last one? STUCK WITH SHIT with an additional ingredient of a USED PAD. how thoughtful of the person who 'brewed tis soup'.
ewwwww... went to the other toilet..
so MUCH DIFFERENCE!!
althou still smelly.. but still more shuang rite!! the previous one like kampong areas one la!! kns..
but we won the overall points champion!!
WE'RE THE CHAMPIONS!!
WE WON IT FOR MS CHUA!! YES!
(but seriously the prize sucks.. a keychain, with a new bowen logo there - a star..)

got the class t-shirt today!!
nice la.. althou smelly and transparent, so i wore the pe shirt inside.. hehe..
den i took bus and went home..
when i alight at the stop.. dunno wat the hell got into me..
I FELL DOWN.
AND SPRAINED MY ANKLE.
worse thing..
IN FRONT OF ONE BUNCH OF STUDENTS.
(with faces changing from shocked to entertained expressions..)
ps si le!! aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!!

hopped home with tat injured ankle with ppl shooting me tat 'i pity u' face..
T____T
and i'm STILL having gastric.
3 bottles of water did not help.
SHITS to chilliiii......!!!!!

ONE WORD.
SUAY.
DNP, SICK, FEELING PREGNANT AND FELL DOWN.

aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!!!

the class taupok!

me n amelia(:

and she's taller than me! :@

goodbye ; 3/23/2007 07:13:00 PM

Tuesday, March 20, 2007;

skipped sch again -.-
my mood definitely did not improve..
and was waking up between intervals to read msges..
and i even dreamt of me reading the msg and got relieved..
but woke up to find out it was just a dream..
i seriously did not wan to wake up.. haha;p

i wrote an email..
decided to tell her how i feel..
my feelings realli damn.. mixed up..
sweet, happy, sad, confused n so on..

haiz..
i don't know to laugh at myself, or to cry.

goodbye ; 3/20/2007 08:00:00 PM

;

feeling damn blue right now, the mood has been the same thruout the whole day.. cried till 2am plus the previous day.. the tears just, non-stop jus keep flowing out like the tap has been forgotten to turn off.. woke up tis morning and my eyes was so puffy and red.. damned..

went to sch, have been so retardedly noisy today.. guess to distract myself ba? den one fren of mine said.. 'you today so noisy, is it wan to hide sth huh?' walao she damn zhun lo.. plus today's newspaper on the main page write big big ''BEING EMO IS A FASHION NOWADAYS''.. zzz

today's phy at the LT, and free period cuz the stupid farid discipline case.. koky sms me say wanna pass me bk den go le.. den i say nvm.. cuz onli for awhile n i wanted to slp.. so after phy immediately went out.. at first decided wanna go home de.. den xinni oso pon, so she pull me go eat.. so i ate maggie mee at 7-eleven.. den nis called me n ask if i wanna go heartland meet up.. she sounding so fragile in the voice, like controlling her tears or watever haha.. so i went to heartland n waited for her, called her she didn't pick up, sms oso didn't reply.. so i bought a comic n waited lo.. den around half hr or wat i called her, den meet at the yellow shop there outside de bench..

she came, sat down n den started sobbing.. zzz looking at her cry, i almost broke dwn too.. but managed to control thou.. haha.. cuz so many other students looking over.. they looked at me as thou i made her cry so ps.. den sat dwn there for dunno how long.. think for close to half n hr.. n went to pizza hut.. cuz nis say, emo must eat!!

feeling rather guilty today -.o''
den cuz nis abit kee siao so i said she very ke lian.. haha..
went home on bus i fell aslp.. so tired..
almost overstop.. haiz feeling emo again..
but the tears is stuck.. althou hurt, but tired too..

haiz..

goodbye ; 3/20/2007 12:50:00 AM

Sunday, March 18, 2007;

tomorrow. school reopens. i'd better start focusing on those damned books.. damned O levels.. just to try my best to get in to the damned veterinarian course in tat stupid old damned building.. when i initially went to find out about it, the intake is 30 and the points is 13 points. NOW IT'S 10. bloody hell 10!! all jc students come and snatch from us.. idiotsss..

anyway, was feeling rather emotional the previous day and i cried myself all the way till 5am to slp.. reason being >> I DON'T WAN MY MOTHER TO DIE. lol!! don't ask me why suddenly i think of these things.. cuz it's for nothing, but i seriously cannot imagine how am i gonna live on without her naggings in this dark, lonely and quiet house. and while crying, my mind floated off to something else.. do the things NOW while u still have the chance.. or u'll regret..

lol.. den i tot of if the doctor were to announce tat my life is left with onli a few weeks or months.. what am i gonna do? i guess i'd have alot of things in my life tat i wished so much to do but it's not done yet.. leaving tis dumb world with regrets.. -.o'' yeah, i can realli think alot.. but i still don't know how to treasure time.. haha.. cuz i'm a born slacker.. TIS IS A TALENT OK?!

and to hell to bloody guys.
i'm not saying ALL.
but those that toy with feelings.. or rather don't know how to treasure.
to hell to 3rd parties too.
if it ain't urs, turn around gracefully and walk away.
there's no point on leeching up to a guy tat's attached.
it onli proves u have NO character at all.
why the hell it's a MUST tat he must be the one?
is ur eyes full of shit?!?!?!
THERE'RE BILLIONS OF PPL OUT THERE.
althou i've let it go.
but don't take it FOR GRANTED.

fcking hell spoil ppl's family.
and u BLOODY HELL THINK U'RE THE BOSS.
STFU.

goodbye ; 3/18/2007 09:27:00 PM

Friday, March 16, 2007;

it's a boring day out with ln, nis and cy!
going out with them is soooooooo meaningless!!
hahhaa..nis' house water system BURST! so she had to brush her teeth at kovan station.. come on ppl, let's celebrate one minute of silence for the death of her water source..
............... DONE! well done ppl.. =D

we played big 2 at ben & jerry at the cathay.. cy is sooo damn lousy at the game!! she could have won la!! she always take the biggest twos.. and she just throw it off! so wasted omg..
den we proceeded to parklane for our dinner.
four medium fries and one large ice tea.
and then to the arcade!!
bishi-bashi!! i won as usual, haiz..
den i played mi drum, standard.. AND DIED!!
cy went home halfway lo...
den after tat daytona..
AND POOL!!
i won again as usual.. so boring!!
not at all challenging k!! tsk!!

den got pulled by two retardeds to take mrt, cuz nis have to go to admiralty to BATHE! HAHHAHAHAHAHAHAAHAAHHAHAAHAHAAHA!!
sorry. just toooooo funny.
HAHAHHAAHAAHAHAHAAHAHAAHAHAHAHAH!!
;P

and the whole journey, ln a.k.a LINDA WILLY AM ZHEN LING was sticking to a curry-flavoured indian!! eek.. her husband?! must be.. den me n nis self-entertained by playing HAI DAI - the MINI version!! hahhaa.. she owe me 2 forfeit!! and i owe her...... 3 >.<
NEVERMIND!!
she never win me in any online games either~
HAHAHHAHAAA!!

p/s: KOKY i'm so disappointed you know you know?? how could u let both the cute, precious, fragile little heart of mine.. and cy's memo bo li xin to wait for u and say u dun wanna come?! sobs~!! =(

goodbye ; 3/16/2007 11:40:00 PM

Wednesday, March 14, 2007;

i'm seriously damn fcking pissed right now.
and it goes on n on..
i'm never gonna do it again.
never :@

going back to emo mood again..
save me..
today, i guess joanne kok is seriously cursed by some weird forces..
keep on non-stop asking..

civilised coffee says: QING XING BA!
civilised coffee says: QING XING!!!
joanne says: AGREE
civilised coffee says: ..................
joanne says: DUN AGREE?
civilised coffee says: agree agree....-.-
joanne says: AGREE!
civilised coffee says: hmm..
joanne says: agree/dun agree?
civilised coffee says: yaya agree..
joanne says: AGREE!
civilised coffee says: ............
joanne says: agree/dun agree?
civilised coffee says: ...........
joanne says: agree?
civilised coffee says: ya agree..agree
joanne says: agree!
civilised coffee says: da jia yi qi agree!
joanne says: AGREE!

save me from her man.. realli kee siao.. -___-

goodbye ; 3/14/2007 09:12:00 PM

Tuesday, March 13, 2007;

10th March, Saturday
went out with the PATHETIC annis to repair her PATHETIC phone. in the end she forgotten to bring her PATHETIC I/C! and then went to borders to look for my ps, i love u..
in the end me n nis found the cover is DAMN DISGUSTINGLY PINK..
so went over to kinokuniya^^ and bought the cute little storybook, and two more comics!
den went over to arcade to play.. den cathay to slack..
or is it the other way round?
den went to nis' house to watch HEARTY PAWS!!
OMG.. TAT SHOW IS DAMN BLOODY NICE..
i cried, but onli on the way home, cuz i didn't wan to spoil the show.. so i REN REN REN!! omg.. but the tears still fell.. den end of show, mi voice changed! haha... nis n her sis happily laughing at me la! wth!

this is the poster la.. but the girl look like mi sis sia!! omg...

13th March, Tuesday
went out with pok, kok, cy and nis... have u ever realise why is is pok n kok? cuz no doubt, ur guess is rite ppl.. they're SISTERS!! they're equally short!! lol!!
k la.. i guess i'm kind enough today not to continue it.. i noe u ppl wanna continue reading.. but we have to be considerate ok? ^^
didn't do much meaningful things today.. cuz i'm with them, was at ms shopping n shopping, and me? complaining!!

Me: I want to da biannn...
Kok: Then go la!!
Me: accompany me la...
Pok: u go la, den we go shopping..
Me: no la!! pei wo qu la!!
(den everyone ignore me..)

*10mins later*
Me: my shit really coming out la..
Them: QU CHE SHUO LA!!
(i kept quiet..)

*30mins later*
(i sat dwn on a chair)
Me: omg... mi da bian kana push back upwards.. HAHA!!
Cy, pok, nis: ..............*laughs, and gave that disgusted look*

den after tat went to ps to eat ajisen.. i got FORCED to eat.. den to parklane and play drum!
mi first time play standard leh.. lol!! so fun, addicted le la..
haiz.. and den played with the escalator.. like retarded bunch of monkeys..
haiz can't be bothered with them.. i'm too matured..

goodbye ; 3/13/2007 11:27:00 PM

Monday, March 12, 2007;

feeling really weird now..
i didn't know how to react when i read it..
so i just cry lo..
haha i'm having mixed feelings..
to be happy or sad..?

i didn't know.. it might take another few years..
but i'm happy with one thing.
we'll still be gd frens :D

goodbye ; 3/12/2007 01:18:00 AM

Saturday, March 03, 2007;

crashed nyjc yesterday, it's overall fun^^
cuz i managed to win MONEY!! from the poor old cow.
moo.

i'm going crazy soon.
followed nis' way of studyin for the first day.. tiring..
requires damn lots of self-discipline sia.. but i managed~
zzz.. nis n cy is going to haunt me le..

Nis: i'm gonna haunt u from now~
Me: ..............
Nis: if u're online, i'll keep nudging u.. if u appear offline, i'll send u endless offline msg.. if u block me, i'll send u email..
Me: change email address!!
Nis: i'll sms you!!
Me: change hp no.!!
Nis: i'll go to ur blog and tag non-stop!
Me: change blog!
Nis: i'll send mail to ur house!! change house la!!
Me: ............... i go other kok house stay!
Nis, Cy: bomb her house!
Koky: don't drag me down!!
Me: .............i'm dead..

and they still say wan sms me.. kok, ln, cy and nis all incharge of mon, tue, wed....
omg.. tis is WORSE than seeing a ghost.
and oh ya, DO NOT ever in ur life ask professor teo to be ur tuition teacher.
or not ur cause of death would be: pressure.

omg.. i've saw her true colors at last.. SOOOO SCARY!!
hahahaaha... ahnisi!! gun!! lol..

goodbye ; 3/03/2007 11:08:00 PM

Thursday, March 01, 2007;

i'm supposed to pon the afternoon lesson for today!!
BUT I GOT PULLED BACK BY JOAN N XIAOMING!!
they basically just THREW me into the class.. god.. i almost fell..
n before today's loci lesson, totally pon pon pon.. so as gd as i know nothing about it.. totally have no idea about wat the hell is loci.. and the teacher announced..

Mrs. Li: after i go thru the wrksheets, there'll be a quiz so u'll need ur compass, ....
Me: HUH?!!?!?!?!
Mrs. Li: yes dolly?
Me: .....nothing cher, can i go home??
Joan: NO! i teach u~

den while going thru the homework (? got meh??).. nis called me, i asked to go to the toilet.. and call her back.. and..

Nis: BAI CHI!! (idiot)
Me: huh..? call me huh?
Nis: ya.. know wat? I PON SCH!! cuz lunch ma.. den i ........*blabbers on*............so late lo, but i realli wan to go back de! realli!!
Me: ...........*feelin like a real idiot, i return call to find out she jus wants to tell me she pons sch*

den i went back to class, joan teach me some weird things bout perpendicular n angle bisector.. before i can ask further, the teacher immediately said:"ok class, single lines, prepare for the test.."

......zzz the test i realli dunno how to do man.. so anyhow draw, got arc can alr.. HAHA!!
den i ask the teacher at the end of the test, she say, yaya correct.. but got some minor faults.. bla bla.. CORRECT EH!!!! I'M A GENIUS LA GENIUS!!

genius at such a young age, oh god.. better remain humble.. HAHAHAHAH!

goodbye ; 3/01/2007 09:39:00 PM