this is my goodbye

updates

Sunday, July 29, 2007;

although i'm feeling so down and affected by this matter..i have to actually act like i know nothing. just to prevent further misunderstandings within my family.

it's tough.
having to put on a fake smile with him.
but still, there ain't a choice for me.

we're not a rich family.
u already have 2 families to take care of..
and u know that there's such a big pile of bills unpaid..
ni wei le zi ji kai xin, bu guan wo men de si huo?

fck you.
and i believed ur rubbish - tat business is bad.

great.
now some stupid, irresponsible ppl say they didn't need part-timers..meant mi mom's losing her job soon.
idiot.
fancy finding excuse to kick mi mom away for some things she didn't do at all.

and..
and i'm actualli facing the possibility that i might not have a hse to stay in.
soon.

just feel like a fool.
being cheated.
to believe in something/someone wholeheartedly..
and then to realise u're jus being kept in the dark/used/cheated..
realli..this feeling realli sucks.
maybe i'm too naive.
time to learn to be more..cold.

ps: to certain ppl..thanks for caring n worrying for me. but i guess there's nothin i can feel happy over..and mayb i wan to be alone? i dun wish to exactly say out wat happened. i'd say if i wan to..so mayb..i'd appreciate if u don't remind me of the matter..sorry for sounding harsh.

pps: anyone have a job, WHICH DOES NOT require me to wear skirts, or to wear make up, i'm willing to do. REALLY.

ppps: jadeeeeeeeeee. JADEEEEE. WHERE R UUUU. i'm hating dis. damn it. *keep secret bout these posts.dun wan them worry.*

pppps: DLACKY..GO OUT LEH.

goodbye ; 7/29/2007 10:07:00 PM

Thursday, July 26, 2007;

had another news from my mother(s), when i thought tat's the end of it. this seriously sucks.
you sucked.
i dunno if i hated u.
i'm goddamn confused now.
great.

I'm seriously pissed off by this bloody man.
to think that i've actualli worried for him.

YOU FCKING DESERVED IT.

giving us all the troubles.
u're willing to leave ur family to die for one person outside.
u're willing to do anything.
fuck you man.

JUST HOW OLD ARE U ALREADY?
haven't you played enough?
how many more ppl u wanna hurt?

nevermind about these..u actualli tried to strangle ppl.
FUCK OFF.
i'll never forget the previous incident you did to my mom.. and now again?
if killing ain't a crime, u'd be dead in my hands.
i swear.
but i shdn't dirty my hands on u.

if u've just so many things u wanna do outside, please at least do something tat WILL NOT get ur family into trouble.

and to think tat u dun even feel guilty.
whose fault?
me?
for being borned into this world.
uh-huh. i'm a burden to u.

for the first time, i hoped for someone's death.
you bloody hell leave tis world.
u're of NO use at all.
rubbish.

goodbye ; 7/26/2007 11:42:00 PM

;

CappucinO, your mood tends to swing between Sad & Calm.

Most of the time you feel sad.
You might subconciously put on a mask to avoid your loved ones from worrying.
You might feel depressed about the direction your life is taking.
When you feel calm, your positive outlook on life is paired with a fairly low energy level.

When you experience the ups and downs of mood swings, the most important thing to remember is that you're not alone.

..HOW TRUE.

goodbye ; 7/26/2007 01:10:00 AM

Wednesday, July 25, 2007;

WARNING.
People, make sure u're goodlooking before making friends with this evil woman here. But if u're her fren, tat doesn't mean u're gdlooking, cuz her taste sucks!

❤SYAL ﾌ heni [c=6][b]..[/b][/c] says:
if u bu hao kan
❤SYAL ﾌ heni [c=6][b]..[/b][/c] says:
i wnt even wan be ur fren lor
wakata. THE ULTIMATE RETARD says:
....

ps: i'm not her fren. HAHAHAA. but i'm gdlooking!

goodbye ; 7/25/2007 11:47:00 PM

Sunday, July 22, 2007;

Ang MiaoNing a.k.a Zhu Mei is officially in the Luo family.
and this new sister of mine, said she wants to wedd off in the year 2020.
wish her luck ppl, i must be the host!

today's the training for the banquet thing.
the hardcopy for the presentation (slides) he gave us..WAS DAMN THICK.
so many DO NOTs.
a total of 25 DO NOTs!!

here's just some of them.
- DO NOT stand on one leg.
- DO NOT put hands in pocket while standing.
- DO NOT fold arms across chest.
- DO NOT lean against wall/door/rail in elevator.
- DO NOT use guest elevators & washrooms.
- DO NOT use hotel's main entrance.
- DO NOT try any food tasting. (sobs)
- DO NOT stand in hands-on-hips pose.

any of the above mentioned (and many others) not obeyed, will be fined SG$5.
MUST put lipstick for females. (and i immediately dun feel like working)
and the grooming standards are exactly like going to school.
no ankle socks.
no punk hairstyles.
no colorful hair dyes.

and up next is the training of how to take the service gear..(holding two spoons with one hand to 'giap' the noodles and food.) and how to debone the fish..and to serve..and to arrange the tables..and to bla bla bla..

i'm telling u. pressurising man.
and so..i'm still considering whether wan to work not.
but nvm!
AT LEAST AT LEAST, I GET TO EAT SOME HIGH QUALITY FISH FOR FREE!

it's cold.
but nvm, hotel standard.
and it's nice!
muahahhaha~
me and mn happily eat and eat..
nt ps at all!

before.

after.

and after the thing, we wandered around the hotel like ghosts to check out the swimming pools, the ballrooms..too bad we can onli see one. and a grand piano!

she's such a mountain tortoise.

ballet~ look at my shadow, at some angle, it looks like an ostrich running.

after exiting from the lift from some random lvls.

the toilet.

while leaving cine after zhu mei's toilet activity, we walk towards the mrt.
and..saw this cute thing giving out flyers..
and i went over to bully him..!! haha..he look like a dumb dumb.
the pay for tat is $10/hr!!
oh god~ immediately, i went over to leave my particulars down.
gd job!

the cute thingy.

sushi for dinner~ thanks da gu~

goodbye ; 7/22/2007 07:50:00 PM

Friday, July 20, 2007;

don't what the hell is happening to my mood.
for the whole day it's damn bad.
and there's just too many things..everything too sudden.
just felt so..irritated.

yesterday's PE was so damn fun.
so many casualties by just playing captain's ball..
kat got hurt by my elbow..and my head got hit by a frisbee.
IT'S STILL HURTING NOW.
first time i know wat's concussion.
0.o''

and i seriously think something went wrong.
i'm so damn tired.
i'm trying hard. but i don't think it's working.
i don't feel like caring it anymore.
i had enough.
really.
tired of everything.

please la, just let everything return to the normal state la.
give my fucking life back to me.
this is making me crazy.

goodbye ; 7/20/2007 09:55:00 PM

Wednesday, July 18, 2007;

ached all over and therefore can't be present in sch.
muahahaha.
smsed jian huo from 10 smth to 1 smth..
god.. sure bao le. bao le bao le.

and lin jun jie's new song - sha shou..
hmm..the song really is nice, but the mtv realli..IS SO DAMN SCARY LA!!
lucky it's censored some parts for the version they put in kbox.

this is the uncensored version, totally different.

http://www.tudou.com/programs/view/QHitNWtHJIc/

oh my god. i guess it can go under the category of horror show.
so..'hse of wax', and 'saw III'..ugh.
if u wanna click on the link, pls be prepared that u'll be seeing organs.
-.-''

goodbye ; 7/18/2007 03:08:00 PM

Tuesday, July 17, 2007;

today's another boring day man.
and my back muscles near the waist there is hurting.
everywhere's hurting, and i'm tired.

and yesterday, some brainless freako broke my record!
NEVERMIND!
ME, THE PRO OF ALL GAMES HAS SET ANOTHER NEW RECORD!

http://miniclip.com/mko.php?c=qBorsBosqouruorFBoUBopBFosuFuoyONyourBq

cute little me.
annis teo is the founder of the game, yet the worse player of them all.
wahhahahha..

goodbye ; 7/17/2007 08:32:00 PM

Monday, July 16, 2007;

O's chinese listening compre today.
we were supposed to report at 2pm to the canteen cuz some stupid paper write that the examination will commence at 2.30pm. and in the end, we happily sat in the classrooms shaking legs, listening to music till 3pm. 1hr of waiting!! with the classical music playing, and there's even one song with birds chipping cheerfully.

oh yeah, talking about the stupid paper.
some brainless form teacher simply said that everyone has signed the paper after collecting the entry proof. and gave a attitude that she have no responsibility for tat. yeah, i agree i'm in the fault for not going to sch. but that's not the attitude u shd give to a student whom u're trying to incalcate some responsibilty values into.

idiot. doesn't she knows what's privacy?
stop asking me things if u like to call and chat with my mom so much.
my mom told u everything.
what more do u want to noe?

i realli have no idea why am i so hot-headed just hearing her name or seeing her stupid face. simply turns me off. damn. early in the morning, and my mood is ruined.

saturday have CIP.
or is it next sat?!
i'm home right now typing tis entry..and just some 15mins ago, some bird happily flew in my hse from the kitchen..

*flap flap flap*
(i turned my head..)
*chip chip!!*
(i crawled to the kitchen..)
AND THE BIRD IS STANDING ON THE BASIN!
the moment it spotted me, it greeted me with a little green shit in my basin.
wth! but so cute~
i tried to get nearer to it..it flew up to my bamboo stick.
and guess what??

it landed on my.......BRA.

and it SHITTED again.

HAPPILY LA!! GRRRRR...

i go in front and jump jump jump..and it flew out.
WHY IS IT MY BRA?!?!
OUT OF SO MANY CLOTHES HANGING THERE.
MY bra!!! why can't it be my MOM'S bra?!?!
wicked brat.
zzzzzz...

goodbye ; 7/16/2007 05:22:00 PM

Tuesday, July 10, 2007;

went to the band fiesta on sun.
met up with jade cause she wan me accompany her go.
when reached e botanic garden was a bit the lost.
so jade called lixin and then we just keep following the crowd.

CHIJ (toa payoh), Tanjong Katong Girl's, Marsilling, Bedok North, and Compassvale bands were there to perform.
CHIJ played pirates of the caribbean, with the pirate hats on their head, so nice. and they rock and rock throughout the song, and..u just feel sea sick when u look at them. haha. they played disney songs too..so nice! got pink panther, looney toons music~

after that was marsilling sec, there's one song nice, and the last one, pussycat dolls - sway.
i love it! so funny and cute.
they not onli play the music, they still dance, section by section, doing the swaying of the buttocks. haha lixin was damn cute and toot. they sway without the conductor~ pro.

tanjong katong girl's are realli good.
althou the songs..hmm no comments..
but their actions made up for everything. quite enjoyable.
oh, so cool la..after i see them play..
feel like joining the saxophone section and blow my lungs off my chest. muahaha.

then went to far east to walk around with jade, and walk to cine to eat.
AND GO TO BISHAN TO FETCH STEFF FROM WORK.
no offence, just wanted to caps^^
and she's damn long!!
i can't play my arcade..the bishan branch close so early..damn it!
and den i went home~
and i played maple till the wee hrs of the morning~
wee wee~

PHOTOS OF THE STUPID DAY.
AND OH YA, NEXT SUN (15 JULY) THERE'LL BE ANOTHER BAND PERFORMANCE AT 5PM. ANYONE INTERESTED TO GO?!
WAAAAAAA~ i'm so into the fking bands!
idiot!

me, jade, and lixin. look at jade's boobs. woots!

the botanic tree~

gu niang and shuai ge

time for a fight! u stupid eagle!

oh, dun i look seductive?

reflection^^

I'M HOT!

i'm soooooo soooo sexy~

FOOTBALL!

goodbye ; 7/10/2007 01:06:00 PM

Saturday, July 07, 2007;

at last my dumb computer is back to normal.
IF NOT 'HE' DUN WANNA SEE MY FACE DE LO..
dun even wan to open his eyes and see me..black black one..hurh!
play attitude with me huh?!
bad comp! bad bad!
but since u know u're wrong, i shall forgive u~

goodbye ; 7/07/2007 02:26:00 PM