this is my goodbye

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Tuesday, February 27, 2007;

shd i be thankful to god tat i've overcame depression..
or shd i be angry about god tat I'VE GOT depression??

maybe, i shd be thankful to god tat i've GOT depression.. haha =)
hmm after getting tat stupid sickness, i've come to learnt n realise many things.
such as, learnt to let go of things more easily..
learning the importance of time (althou i still didn't use my time wisely)..
came to realise tat the world will never wait for u regardless of watever reasons u have,
and lastly of cuz.. realising who my true frens were ^^

actualli i'm not very sure whether the reason tat trigger off mi depression is tat person.. but i guess it is.. according to my mom, she say tat she realised i've been acting weird since sec 2 end, when we're split into classes.. cuz it's like onli splitting of classes, and i'm so emo about it.. my reaction was damn big, i cried n cried n cried~~~ dunno for wat. also not someone dying. LOL.

sch reopens and i closed myself up, i don't like the class.. i want to go back to sec 2's class..
retarded me.. i started lockin myself inside the house, sleeping and using com.. and my mouth just don't open much u see, it's sour^^ haha.. even towards dlacky i don't talk much le..

the com is my onli world~
the onli world i can not face reality.

don't mind bout those..
blogged here cuz i suddenly feel emo..
but i'm realli happy i've got to know these bunch of retards.. haha!!
althou i've no impression bout it, but my mom say they cared about me, came to my house n someone even consoled my mom.. lol

ps/: i wanna thank those who were there for me during tat period of time especially JOANNA WILLY AM a.k.a laoni.. (ops~ i mentioned ur name again) cuz she's the person who consoled my mom.. haha.. i hate to admit tis but i'm fortunate to know u k. =D but rather, i'm VERY fortunate to know nis, kok, cy and ln^^ like tat more fair la.. but today we be more generous k? give ln the honor, tsk.. must praise her more if not she won't do more gd things le.. wahahaha

goodbye ; 2/27/2007 09:00:00 PM

Monday, February 26, 2007;

ain't any idea why i'm still ponning sch at tis time of the year.
or rather classes and tests.
maybe i feel it wasn't important since it's not Os.
but lol.. tat's the wrong attitude la..
and now i finally understand how ln felt when she told me she dreaded going to sch.. cuz at tat point of time, i'm still enjoying mi life.

maybe after some things happen, u can learn to let go easier^^
cuz tat's wat u called experienced..
haha..

not much to blog about..
i'm here now cuz i've ponned ss lesson again.. hehe

ps/: wearing red undies is SURE USEFUL!! i won most of the games during recess.. lala~ =D

goodbye ; 2/26/2007 02:38:00 PM

Wednesday, February 21, 2007;

one more question left.
just one more.
but i guess it ain't important anymore yep?

lol.. chinese new year rocks~!! ang paos and more ang paos.. of cuz the most important thing is GAMBLING!! but i guess i'm really the money god tis year, keep losing money. tsk!
ppl! wan money, come n play with me den.. haha..

seriously bored.
my tests aren't scoring well..
but good, i'm not falling sick so often anymore :D
Os.. haiz, althou there's still more more than half a year left,
BUT,
i'm telling u i understand very clearly that there is NOT MUCH time left.
i haven't play enough man.
got to stop though :)

looking back at my sec 3 work.
*faints*
looking at my sec 4 work.
*huh?*
how to score 10 - 13 pts like tat!!!

TSK!!.....my batch CANNOT retake la..
grr.. shd stop stressing myself, i'm supposed to be happy ^^
I'M SUPPOSED TO BE HAPPY SO AS OTHER PPL WILL BE HAPPY TOO~!

yeah~! think of ang paos then.
got money, i happy~!

goodbye ; 2/21/2007 06:53:00 PM

Thursday, February 15, 2007;

not over it yet.

zzz.
feeling down down, down.

goodbye ; 2/15/2007 04:39:00 PM

Tuesday, February 13, 2007;

It's the big day today.

The Lord was born on the 13th February 1990, Friday.
The day the happiness showered the Earth.
Dolly Tan, the Lord of all Looks has been borned!
To save the Earth from all ugly looks,
by being the only good-looking human on Earth...
How noble...

4E3 is definitely a sweet class, i arrived in the hall in the morning and they started crowded around me to shake my idolic hand.. god, they sure are fortunate tat i shook it back.
it's so boring today, so i decided to slp throughout.
after around one hr, the teacher woke me up
Ms Chek: Dolly, wake up... are you ok?
Me: *still blur from just waking up* yea, just feeling dizzy (of cuz bluffing)
Class: Today's her birthday!! .......*then they started singing*
so sweet lo.. thanks!! haha.. but they didn't stop, they whistled the song out.. haha special one ^^

if you're asking me bout today's eng test, i'm telling u now tat it's alr a gone case.
if about phy, i'm telling u... I THINK I CAN PASS! (but things don't usually go my way.. so gone case too).
went over to hougang mall's lib to wait for COCKY and NISEE. tried studyin bio, but after 10mins or so.. i took out my storybook to read.. Marley & Me, it's definitely a wonderful book if u're an animal lover.. hehe.. they reached finally.. and they both crapped bout which sch to go to.. and proceeded to KFC after much dily-dalying.

there, annis started again.
*sings* THERE SHE GOES... THERE SHE GOES AGAIN~
tsk.. once again, my face turned from dull to interesting. she can't stop laughing at the sight of my face, of cuz i've no idea why.. i ordered my three piece chicken n kok her two piece. we sat down n ate.
ANNIS AIMED.
WE BLOCKED.
SHE AIMED AGAIN.
WE BLOCKED.
MISSED.
ANNIS WON.
my fries gone. and a few of my chicken crumbs gone too.
haiz.. and she laughed her way thru till shitshit and laoni came..

we went to ntuc cuz the cheapskate *=P* annis wanted to buy her valentine's day present there.. tsk! den nis teok a.k.a yang3 chen2 ling2 led me deeeeep into the store where the others can go up their own sleeves, for their tricks. tsk.. then went to foodcourt, where annis teok again led me to the toilet for some self-obsess session..
and came out to find out...
that...
THERE'S NOTHING!!
heh, no la.. a cake on the table..
they sang for me.. but one thing for sure, laoni's candle lighting skills ssssucks! haha..

on to present unwrapping time.. two packages.
one in wrapping paper.
one in plastic bag, which looks like a poncho.
the first one, includes wrapping paper.. and newspapersssss..
inside it was a billabong wallet, i liked it alot!! thanks!! ^^

the second one, includes plastic bag, and MORE plastic bagss..
inside it was a shirt.
'LOVE IS SUICIDAL'
T_T
small-sized..
T__T
asked me to wear it one the spot..
T____T
*sweats* so tight! haha.. but thanks anyway..

continued shop for vday present for shitshit.
crapped with laoni on the way home.

forgot to mentioned the most interesting news of the day.

13Feb2007, 6:??pm
- Joanna Willy Ams touched the USB port of the laptop.
- And it started SCREAMING.
- "omg! i'm touched by a dung!"
- it goes non-stop, the culprits RUNS.

reported by: __GONGIEGONG =)

goodbye ; 2/13/2007 09:18:00 PM

Friday, February 09, 2007;

went to have reunion lunch today..
and they surprised me with an early birthday cake ^^
how sweet.. haha..

then went over to amkhub ntuc to buy new yr's stuffs..
managed to kope $20!! hahaha.. tat's an achievement for the day!!
got myselfs chocs, pringles, ruffles and layssss... for free!

and my eyes is worsening again.. so no choice, my grandma is there..
she nagged me to see a doc immediately..
the doc say there's two reasons..
1. eye irritationg (dust, dirt, weather, dryness)
2. sensitive nose
and he gave me sooooo many medicine..

nose medicine - 4
eye drops - 2
total: $60

WALAO.. LUCKY NOT I PAY.
so ma fan la.. got morning eat, nite eat.. got nose spray, day n nite, one wk later night onli.. two kinds of eye drops.. 6 hr difference for each.. but 3 hr alternately for both.. zzz so ma fan

I CAN'T WEAR CONTACTS TO SCH!! OR GO OUT!!
HAVE TO WEAR TAT NERDY SPECS!!

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAARRRRGGHH!

goodbye ; 2/09/2007 09:06:00 PM

Thursday, February 08, 2007;

today so sian, tiok dc.. but no worries, my blog is always full of FUN!!
THE FUN IS AT THE BACK!!

the heats is at 2pm.. and since the whole class participated,
afternoon class = 0% attendance
and it's cancelled ^^

me, joan, fiona and siti took our time there.
on the way we stopped at a bubbletea store to buy BUBBLETEA!!
if not buy curry meh??
den fiona is the last one, so i decided to ask everyone to hide.. den i've no idea wat's taking her so long.. so i played police, and did the checkup on wat she's doin with the 'gun'..
and she FOUND ME!! haha.. and i was shot to death.. haiz..

we reached there at around 2.30pm and the event 100m girls started.. so i reported lo.. then i was lead to the lane, where i asked a qn..

Me: Cher! run till where huh? where stop??
Mr. ??: Jurong jurong, no jurong no stop.
Me: ...................

then tat BANG goes, i ran.. and den i think i got the 3rd or wat..?
17.83.. which is damn slow la!!
grrr.. after tat is all other events le.. there's still a long way to go before 4 x 100m..
so i went to do long jump.. over there, my first try..
i RUNNNN...
i JUMPPPED...
and i fell FLAT on my stomach in the sand pit.. T____T
which means..
when i stand up, there's a shape of a human on the sand..
of cuz there're lots of ppl entertained by me la.. tsk!!
288m highest.. tsk!!
still got monster can jump till 492m!!
2nd and 3rd try all flat on the floor... zzzzz
my knees are in bruises and holes state now.. =(
even the teacher laughed.. waaaaa!! i'm so talented!!

then 4 x 100m came, i'm the first runner,
instead of shouting 'up!', our team decided to shout 'OI!'... keke.. unique rite?!
we came in 2nd..
cuz our last runner pulled her leg muscle.. lucky she's alright.. =D

after tat, it meant tat mi events and mi job are over!!
haha.. so i sat at the grass patch beside the track, whole patch filled with e3 members in one line.. so i started my craps..
i borrowed the headband or watever u called it from siti..
and started all sorts of hairstyles i could come up with, including the carrot, pirate, hip hop, ah siao...
and did a competition on nerds..
where me and fathur pull our shorts all the way up to the gastric area..
he won. and tat's a gd thing!
and of cuz did cheering for our class..
i think we're the main voices in the whole stadium la.. centre of attention.. HAHA..

we did a e3 wave with hoon siang, desmond running as the lead,
whereby when he run pass we'll go up.. and den dwn..
KEPT DOING..
AND I FELT LIKE A FROG.
but a happy one..=D
croak~

and at the end of all events, our class ran one round the track cheering loudly.. lol

after tat we took one class photo, and 12 of us went to eat dinner..
at RK HOUSE!!
hahhaa.. it's a happy experience man..
my fren had wanted to ask a qn to the indian man..
Q: why do indians do facial can die?
A: cuz all their blackheads are removed.
walao.. lame la!! haha..

i finished eating my curry, so i asked for service..
Me: eh enchek, any pork curry? (indian accent)
Man: eh don't have la. we halal. (heavier indian accent)

after a moment.. i asked for service again..
Me: eh enchek, actualli ur food here nice la..
Man: eh thank you.
Me: but add pork nicer la..
Man: ...........

don't dare to disturb any further la..
scared ltr tio complain cuz all of us wearing sch u.. lol
wonderful day la.. with those crappy frens..

my eye is now wrapped on one side.. cuz infected.. haiz so damn itchy la..
no idea wat's with my f*ckin eye. tsk!
ehh, no using of vulgarities ok?! i'm a civilised person..
do u FcKING NOT understand me?!?!?!

muahahah... tis are the photos.. i didn't noe e3 is so united till today, i'm gonna miss tis class ^^

the 4 x 100m girls ^^

the crazy hairstyle

the pirate one with bavani held hostage

the carrot hairstyle

hip hop? yo!

elvis presley on the way~!

kat!! meow.

siti, me, lynnette n kat

elvis hairstyle =D

4e3`o7 rocks!!

xiaomin T__T

xiao ming n jia sheng ^^

the act cool guy la.. zzz

goodbye ; 2/08/2007 10:20:00 PM

Wednesday, February 07, 2007;

currently listening to a song by zhou bi chang.. and tat aids to my depressed mood to a more depressed level.. -.-
i've no idea why my mood is so low.. i haven't attend sch for 2 days consecutively..
i have my reasons, but it's definitely not a valid one..
i hope there's realli something tat can help me cheer up..

i can't accompany them to take results this fri, cuz i have a reunion lunch at 1.30pm.. have no idea why i'm feeling so heavy.. by nothing? haha.. emo shall be the word for me.. i might be smiling. but maybe not from the heart.

so afraid tat the depression will come back to me.
shoo~!!
felt like learning violin all of a sudden.. HAHA..
music - the only friend i know that'll be loyal to me forever.
or maybe i shall include animals.. haha.. =)

goodbye ; 2/07/2007 08:01:00 PM

Saturday, February 03, 2007;

woah.. today had a SATISFYING day.. was playing gun shooting in class with my frens when mrs chan became the target.. and she gave the matrix reaction.. lol so funny.. den the class got too noisy,

so i shouted:"ONE SILENT CLAP!"
class: ..................

wat the hell!! so ps!! hahaha.. den of cuz leng chang, whole class laughed.. haiz.. anyway was supposed to meet koky to study.. den just nice saifanie sent a msg to me asking wanna study today, so she's in.. and kok ask if cy can join, and so now four ppl.. and NEVER DID I EXPECT WAS THERE A 5th.. and it's the famous transparent glass, u noe, u call plastic acrylic.. now u call glass annis =D

she reached so late and she gave me attitude.. i'm totally NOT HAPPY bout her performance! keke.. took quite a number of photos today, so i'm satisfied.. ahhh..

after 'studying' chem, we went to far east today, shop shop, and i pierced my ear.. looks weird.. hmm den left for dinner at cine..
KFC. IT'S FINGER LICKIN' GOOD =D

and there was also where my $10 flew.. haiz.. a gust of huge wind (jade) blew past and it's gone..

koky n cy went home, me sai n nis continued roaming around like wandering ghost.. hehe.. roamed nike, world of sports, den rushed to adidas but it's CLOSED. cuz annis is outside the door. sad.
so lazy to type alr.. zzzz here are the pics ^^