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Wednesday, July 23, 2008;where is "ME"
sometimes, in the long and complicated process of growing up, you lose yourself.and then, while trying to find "me" back, you changed.obviously, without yourself knowing/realising.
and then you say things and do things.
and then you dread wat you've just said or did.
and then regret and wonder why did you do that.
you could've approached it with a much better way.
just some simple things,
but it can't be accomplished.who do i blame?
my incompetency?just a simple intention,
gets misinterpretted into the most complicated of matters.who do i blame?
my inability to communicate properly?really felt like shutting my mouth up.because nothing that comes out seemed right.i should learn to react maybe 5secs slower.so i can think about my actions.but what the hell...?won't that be..being hypocritical?or not being myself?but if being yourself meant losing everyone, are you still gonna be yourself?but if you're not being yourself, what are you?are you just gonna change everytime you meet different ppl?no character.to hell with what others think,as long it is not what it is?i've been trained to be like this since young what.why am i bothered right now?but seriously, why did i change?is this why ppl keep changing?and the thing about emotions.yes, i'm feeling something at last.but experience just tells me that it's the same old thing that'll lead you to ur death.the feeling that throws u into the bottomless pit.sucky isn't it?back to stone, back to stone.why not..to gold?so i can sell it for money.;p
the most painful expression is having no expression.
the most lonely thing is to realise you're alone all the while.
the sadest thing is that, you can't even face yourself.
goodbye ; 7/23/2008 12:30:00 AM
